Poop , Puke and Pervs



Interesting title right? As you read it will make more sense ha ha

This is probably going to be a brief post. Did not have time to post yesterday, when we got home at 1:30 in the morning I was just too tired. Today I think ia m just too lazy, we are kinda having a lazy day.  I am not going into details of who and what. But last night we had BWW for dinner, and it is the only thing we had in common, and lets just say a lot of poop and barf was going on today. As most of you know I am a pretty blunt person so I will admit i was one of the poopers today……… It started as I was walking back from Starbucks this morning, I  needed to be in a bathroom. Any bathroom. My stomach started cramping, and I felt slightly dizzy, and I began sweating. And, naturally, I started walking as if I’d been f**** by a football team—cheeks clenched, slightly bow-legged, short stride. My body was clearly telling me, “Dude, you’re not gonna make it home.” So I continued on, walking like an action figure, until I almost—but not quite—dropped an entire load into my pants. We got stopped at a red light and couldnt cross the street, so I stood there—cheeks even more tightly clenched—for about 30 seconds waiting for the movement to (not) pass. I got home, ran to the bathroom and closed the door behind me, dropped my pants and (I know, this is gross, I’m sorry, but it’s a poop story and so it needs an ending) let loose. Didn’t even wait for skin to touch porcelain, which it eventually did once the pressured force from my poop weakened. I was in there so long you would think I decided to recreate the Manhattan project! One of the gals texts me to inform me she had to puke, so i tried best as i could to hurry. When I was done, about 10 minutes and several awkward sounds later, did what one does, and opened the door. There was no one there…..And I was mildly disappointed because I had hoped to open the door and hear applause after all that! what can i say, pooping is an inconvenient, sometimes unpredictable thing, So we have been home today kicking it…. we may go out later and see the 9/11 memorial if everyone is up to it. I am feeling fine now, after a visit to the pot a few times. I don’t think i will be eating any BWW anytime soon though!

So since i didnt write yesterday, let catch you up to speed on what we been up too. Yesterday Sam (Melissa cousins) had to work, so Melissa, Traci with a “i” and not ie….. went out and ventured on our own, but we decided to get me a metro pass first…. since i am considered “disabled” and I get 50% off the trains…..  which will save us tons of money while we are here.  but what a pain in the butt!! We went to the metro station near where we are, asked them how to get to the office we needed to go to to get the card, they told us just two stops away. WRONG! Got off and they said, it was at the pentagon stop…….. WRONG! got off there and they tell us to go to Gallery stop. PAH!!! (finally in ASL) that was the correct stop. I was quite pissed, especially since we wasted money getting to the stops and they told us the wrong ones! I was signing like a mad woman (ask Mark he will tell you how much better i sign when Ia m pissed off ha ha) and Melissa was interpreting for me. the lady just kept saying ” its a new program the employees do not know about it, you can go online and find out all the information” Ummmm thats not my point, I knew all the information, I already went online. the point was I asked where their main office was and even had the address and they told us wrong several times, and we wasted money! I wanted them to give Melissa and Traci a free pass for one way or something. I was so mad, we are unfamiliar with the metro here, it was our first time, those people are here to help us! they were extremely nice , I give them that. but they still gave us wrong information! By then i was hot, tired and hungry, so I totally went off on the woman. It was probably a good thing I was signing, otherwise people in the other room would have heard me I am sure! ha ha I don’t lose my patience often, but Melissa and I are living on a few dimes this weekend, until payday next week, and that will not even be much! Every penny counts, I was mad to waste some!

After all that we calmed down and relaxed and went off to explore. We saw a lot of downtown distric, Saw the utside of Ford theater where Lincoln was killed, and across the street the house he died in. We did not go in because the line was so long and we were to meet Sam shortly after she got off work.  We were walking down the street at one point and this guy looks at Melissa’s and my boobs. then he said “Mmmmm just delicious!” Ha ha ha that defiantly applies to Melissa but I belong int he itty bitty titty committee ha ha Though my friend Victoria does make them look nicer and the dress I had on lol We walked by so many beautiful buildings I cant even remember them all, St Patrick church was another and it was just GORGEOUS!!!

We finally met Sam and got some cheap McDonald burgers to eat, the place inside smelt SO bad!! I am not saying that to be mean, it just is a fact. I am sure it is one of the few places the so many homeless people can afford to eat. It was pretty packed with them. You see them everywhere int he street here, reminds me a little of L.A. skid row. in some areas. It is a wake up call to some of the problems we have for sure! Very sad. After we got our food we went to see if there was anywhere to sit down, there was this little coffee cart that had a few open tables, but for customers only. so we bought a macaroon, the cheapest thing on the menu. I did not see the macaroon until after we were done eating, it was so friggin small i never noticed it! i kid you not, I could not believe it cost a buck seventy five! it was the size of a quarter! and it tasted like poop! Oh well was worth it to sit at a table in the shade!

We then went to explore “The Mall” not shopping mall all you shopaholics! THE Mall! It was beautiful! OMGosh! so much to see, obviously we will be returning to it over and over, this was just a quick walk through and that took several hours! We only hit the side the Capital building is on, we need to do the other side where the monument is, not to mention we did not go inside anything either yet. But we will!! Melissa suggested Traci and I roll down the Capital hill, so we did just that! Like over excited little children!! I felt like I was flying and going 100mph! and in my mind I WAS!!! Normally, all the parts of your body are pushing on each other because of the constant force of gravity. But in the “free-fall” state of plummeting down a hill, there is hardly any net force acting on you. In this case, the various pieces of your body are not pushing on each other as much. They are all, essentially, weightless, each falling individually inside your body. This is what gives you that unique sinking feeling in your stomach — your stomach is suddenly very light because there is less force pushing on it. The same thing happens when you drive down a dip in the road in your car or descend in an elevator moving at high speed. I LOVE THAT FEELING and hate it at the same time! lol

We took tons of pictures, I will post them to my Facebook later. It was Sad, Senator Baker passed away, so all the flags are at hald mass, which you can plainly see in the pictures. RIP Senator! After several hours and pictures, we walk back to the subway and head home. while we were about to embark onto a train, this guy looks at all four of us with these creepy ” I am undressing you with my eyes look” and he says something like “Mmmm hmmm yeah, boy do I want to hang out with you guys later!” That is not an exact quote, because obviously i did not hear him, but Traci with a “i” and not ie told me! Then we hop on the train, and there are these two guys who totally circle Miss Traci with a i and not ie and talk her head of ……… they were not really pervs or anything, just drooling the whole time! (This is common, they flock to our little golden girl!! )

Got home and head to Buffalo Wild Wings, ate and cracked up at telling each other stories of our experiences and so on. We have literally been cracking up all weekend! such good company!! We then went to chase fireflies and try to catch them after, for a good hour or so. With no success! Maybe tonight 🙂

That is the gist of it so far. We are off to go see the Pentagon and 9/11 memorial soon. I will write again soon! thanks for reading…..peace






Houston we have a problem!


June 26, 2014 7:40 a.m.

This shit just got real! We are in the air! OMGosh, it has been fourteen years since I have flown. I giggled and squealed like a little school girl when we took off! Then I saw the ocean, my happy place and squealed again at the pretty view! ( I warned Melissa there may be a lot of giggling and squealing, I am like a kid at new things ha ha) I did feel little u easy flying over the ocean , even for a wee bit of time we did. I don’t mind flying at all, but I think an international flight would bother me.

Anyway, we started the day off at 4:30. After only about three and a half hours sleep. No big deal, sleep if over rated. We get ready in a flash, no make up, not hair curled. So pardon the pictures a la natural lol got to lobby and waited for shuttle, which actually came too fast….. Didn’t they know we were dying for a smoke and knew we will be deprived of one for like six hours until Houston? ( Yeah, I still smoke, don’t want to hear it! Lol) arrive airport, do curbside check in and had that smoke.

Now things are starting to feel real, I been in a state of disbelief for the last few weeks. As I said before I have no problem flying, but at the same time I am feeling a little fear and anticipation at the same time, you know that feeling you get when standing in line for your favorite roller coaster? That!

While standing in line waiting to board, we informed a attendant I am Deaf ( didn’t know there be like closed captioning when they tell you about emergency procedures (I was pleased to see there was) of if we could sit somewhere up front where we could SEE the flight attendant (we couldn’t but doesn’t hurt to ask lol) also just good to let them know) … She was a total Bitch and basically looked at us like “what are you telling me this for?” And said to tell the attendant when we get in the plane.

Now we are on our way, I am trying to write these blogs in pieces, so I write everything that is fresh in my mind. Want to know what is in my mind right now? Someone just farted! Just a little one, I don’t have to pull down the oxygen mask yet!

These seats are so small and the isle is so narrow…. I am on the end seat (darn it I like window!) and every time someone walks by they hit my shoulder. But hey I am not complaining, I am just deliriously happy that I am on his plane to experience every time someone harshly walks by me and makes my shoulder do a 180 and they don’t even say excuse me! Majority just lightly brush up against you, but there are a few who must have been holding their pee for a few hours and in a mad dash to the potty. But I so much rather be experiencing rude people then not be here at all, so bring it!

Ok, time to sign off for now, my iPad battery drains really fast. So I am going to shut off I need it to last all day. Time to watch out the window and see if the Twilight Zone man is there ( if u never watched that show ignore that comment) and enjoy the turbulence! Weeeee! Oh, by the way, Melissa is already snoozing next to me…..lucky bitch! (See pic below, if she approves it lol) I can’t sleep in any type of vehicles.

4:10 p.m.

“Houston we have a problem” p

Just took off from Houston. Staring out the window and it is so beautiful out there. Big puffy white cotton candle clouds. We didn’t get a window seat (bummer lol) but Unlike the last flight, I can see out. Last flight the lady at the window kept it closed the while flight until the last ten minutes. I know it was because she was napping, but still, I wanted to see! The man next to me is already sleeping and he kept it open, yay! Melissa is starting to doze off too…. I am. Eat, I wish I could sleep on plane. Ha be only slept about five hours last two days.

Our first flight was pretty mellow, not much turbulence. I suspect we will have more his time. Was raining in Houston and there was dark clouds everywhere. Ha ha I think I just jinxed us, bumpity bump bump the plane goes. Weeeee lol

When we got off the other plane, we took out ticket out to see which gate we needed to go too. After glancing we realized we did not have a seat together! Not acceptable! Lol By this time we are really joneses for a ciggy, hungry because we had not ate anything yet and tired from little sleep. A deadly combination, not to mention we are female! Hee hee We go stand in line of the customer service counter, wasted about 30 minutes of our time we had to smoke, eat and pee. But it did get resolved once we got up to the counter and pretty fast….. Melissa is sitting next to me now looking all sweet snuggled with her purple froggy pillow! (More turbulence!!)

After the we finished with customer service we jetted it outside for that smoke. As we were sitting there a lady approaches me and hands me a whole unopened pack if smokes, same brand I smoke. I think she saw me take mine out. She said she was finished with them, this ciggy was her last one, she wanted to quit starting in D.C. She chatted with us briefly, then went off to be alone and bid so long to a nasty habit. Then she walked back over to me and handed me e remaining if e pack she had lol ( no conspiracy theories, lectures or anything about being handed something from a stranger to take in a plane please lol) maybe she had something smuggled in that unopened pack, she had it resealed and is (turbulence) smuggling meth or heroin on board through me and when we land, either I will get detained and arrested, or she will tell me she changed her mind and could she please have her smokes back? Lol call me patty……

So we ate some lunch, shared a pantini sand which , got my free Starbucks I been saving for this trip and expires today lol Then sat and peopled watched and checked Facebook. Got the sweetest message from my baby girl Ashleigh that said “. “. I miss her too , so much! It seems crazy, I just saw her yesterday, and going a few weeks not seeing (more turbulence!) each other is not rare. But there is something different about being near and knowing if needed that person could be there shortly, and being far away and unable to get to them fast. Thanks for the message my “Princess Bitch” it made me smile and warm inside!

My favorite and most hated part of flying is the same. I love love take off! But I hate sitting there and then slowly taxing on the runway…… When the pressure drops in the cabin and oxygen is low, I feel like (turbulence!) I am willing myself to not pass out. (I am actually ) this flight I don’t seem to be recovering from it as fast, almost like they left the oxygen level a little lower then last (who ah! BI g turbulence there!) flight. (Insert how u feel here)

I am staring out the window and am just amazed at how this big hunk of metal, can be sailing like a bird in the sky. I know the bare basics how it happens, but I am examining the wing and feeling all the vibrations through my bones! I actually want to know more about how this works! I know saying this will please my boyfriend very much! He is an engineer (turbulence) and is always telling me how things are made, and he has experience in aviation, and lights up like a Christmas tree when I ask geeky questions! Lol It’s pretty hot actually lol

Ok, going to go read about global warming (something else that will please Mark lol) That’s all for now until probably bed time.

Man taking selfie when we got off…..

11:42 p.m Eastern Time

We made it here yay! It was a pretty ur eventful flight aside from so e turbulence. When we arrived we had to stick around and wait for Traci with a I and NOT IE! ( Better Traci? Hee hee ) nothing citing happened then either, except this one older man who kept aiming his phone at us, and we were thinking “wth? He is taking our pic??” To realize later he was taking selfies! Lol thought he was a dirty perv at first heh

Traci’s flight arrived about an hour later and the three of us were reunited and ready to cause some trouble in D.C. Tomorrow though….too tired tonight lol

Melissa’s cousin picked us up, she is letting us stay with her in Crystal City Virginia our first two nights, until we check into Gallaudet Wed. She lives in a nice building, right in a quaint little promenade. We walked around and got some. Grub and SAW FIREFLIES!! Or lighting bugs, whichever you call them! We all got giddy at that and every time we saw one we would squeal in delight! It was our first time seeing them! So amazing, I want to take them home and keep them forever!

Now we are back and getting ready for bed, it has been a long day. Melissa and I have been traveling since 5 a.m. We have a busy day tomorrow, going to the mall and hit some museums, then later go to the pentagon and see the 911 memorial there! I can’t wait I heard it is beautiful! I want to say a prayer there for all affected by it.

Good night friends……peace.

Here is a pic of us when we all finally were together 🙂

This is Starting to feel real……


Hello! Well first just a little info for those who might stumble upon this blog that do not know me. I been procrastinating for a long time to start a blog…..  PAH ( “finally” in ASL) I am starting one. Why? Because,  I have been blessed with a wonderful opportunity to attend Gallaudet University for their summer program.  This is the first Deaf University in the United States, located in Washington D.C. It is the BEST University for Deaf studies. It is a very prestige school. Many people who helped me get here have asked me to start a blog and document my adventures and experience during my stay. So here I am.

It seems most bloggers always do a “who am I?” So, who am I? I am one very blessed person. Who has been touched by many kind souls in her life. The whole reason this blog is even happening is because many have contributed to help me get here. If not for all of you individuals who helped, this opportunity would not be possible. I would not be on my way to living something I only dreamed about. So I want to say a HUGE thank you. I would name everyone, but there are so many, and also I am not sure who would want to be mentioned and who wouldn’t. So you know who you are, and know that I am forever grateful to you for helping me chase my dream and further my education. I promise I will make the best of it and I will someday pay it forward.

As far as information about me, I find it difficult to really get the true essence of me down on paper. But here’s my best shot ME: fun, easy-going, caring, goofy, spontaneous, straight-forward and friendly; an adventurous free spirit willing to try almost anything. I am extremely honest and considerate.  I love to have fun! People who know me would say I am creative, passionate and that I make the best out of every situation. I am a giving person, and am very sensitive to the needs of people around me I’m a confident, happy and outgoing person and I love my life. Honesty and integrity are core values and extremely important to me. I’m a go-getter, but my most important goal is that my family is healthy, happy and balanced. I’m a very passionate, loving, and affectionate person. I like cooking, roller blading, going to the beach, dancing, any outdoor activity. I also like to curl up with a good book or watch a good movie.  Iam a huge tom boy, not afraid to get dirty, break a nail or get my hair wet, but I am all girly too and have that soft side also. LOL I am the mother of 2 beautiful children and my favorite thing to do is spend times with my kids. My kids are first in my life. I have a amazing boyfriend who I am madly in love with. I am a full time student, majoring in ASL (American sign language) , Teaching and Arts and Humanity. Yup three majors!  I am Deaf and proud! I just recently got in touch with my Deaf culture. I was never exposed to ut growing up, I actually thought I was a very rare individual and did not realize there are a lot of people jut like me out there. So I am kind of on a personal self-exploration journey , learning so many new things about myself as I go. It has been great so far!

I could go on and on, but that pretty much sums it up. You will learn more then you want to know about me throughout this blog I am sure, so stay tuned and enjoy!

Tam 🙂

“It is starting to feel real”

June 25, 2014   6:00 a.m.

Yesterday I was running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off….. My flight isn’t until Thursday. But Melissa and I are leaving today to stay at a hotel near LAX. Our flight is at 7:00 a.m. So rather than wake up at 2a.m to get ready then drive the hour there (or longer if we hit traffic) we are staying near airport and catch a shuttle there.

I been really emotional today, happy, sad, excited, scared nervous. I don’t know if I PMSing or being a pre-menopausal fool! Or maybe this is just normal, I can be normal for once right? This is the first time I have ever taken a trip like this. Sure I have been a few places to visit family and friends. Those trips were awesome and amazing, this is still different. I know I am going for school, but it is also going to be like a vacation, I mean Washington D.C.? Major sightseeing location! I believe school is from 8:00 a.m. to 2:30 p.m. So the rest if the day is for us to have adventures! Watch out D.C. The three of us are going to take you by storm! Anyway so the school and the location, very exciting, thrilling…..so happy to be going! So, why sad? Well I have never been away from home this long, it is a long time to go and not see my kids and Mark. Granted, my kids do not live at home any longer, but I still usually see Nathan once a week. Ashleigh being busy with her school and working, sometime we have gone a month. So that isn’t going to really be much different, but then it is because there still a sense of comfort knowing they are just a short car ride away, not three thousand miles away! What if something happens? Mark and I have only gone once the last five years without seeing each other this long. Now that we live together, I have gotten used to him being there every day. And my Roxii pup and Baby Kitty! Will they forget me? 😦 lol What if something happens while I am gone and I can’t get home? So yeah….. That’s why the sad part. It will pass once I get there and to hell with them all I am sure! Ha ha just kidding.

I was a little somber on the car ride this morning at 6:00 a.m. I was holding back tears I could tell, I just wanted to climb into Marks lap, but obviously I couldn’t he was driving. So as my head was on his shoulder ….. Started feeling my eyes burn, my throat swell a little bit, kept telling myself in my head… “Stop silly this is a good separation”….. but that little pep talk didn’t work…. My chest got heavy; I felt the warm tears slowly filling my eyes… Then my nose started feeling a tingle, all through my cheek bones, right before the tears fell slowly down my face….. Kept telling myself how silly I was… Then I kept writing about this feeling in my mind, you know like rehearsing in front of a mirror? So I decided to pull out my iPad and started writing it while I still could feel exactly what I was feeling….. I knew I wouldn’t be able to describe it again as well once this feeling passed. Plus I didn’t want to bawl my eyes out, so this is distracting me…..

Of course the floodgates opened again as we arrived at Starbucks, where Mark was dropping me off and I am waiting for my friend Melissa who I am going with, to pick me up. Also where Tracie works, our other partner in crime for this journey!

So goodbyes are said, I go in and sit down start playing “scramble” one of the many word games I play, and in kid you not these were the first words that I found in the little box you have to find words in…”sad, tears, tear, sob, sobs, sadly, mark, miss” What’s up with that? Talk about putting salt in my wounds!

I know , I know….. I am being silly. I am not going to be gone for THAT long……  ::::: sigh ::::


2:30 p.m.

My kids, Ashleigh and Nathan just left.  I was so happy they could stop by before I left. I wasn’t sure, because they both work today, but it worked out they had time. Of course I cried a little when they left….. I am such a silly sap. Lol

11:00 p.m.

Melissa and I packed up the rest of our stuff and then off we went to stay at The Sheraton Four Points near LAX. Our flight leaves at 7:00 a.m. so Melissa’s mom got us a room near the airport so we didn’t have to wake up super early and drive there. Now we are a quick shuttle away! We all had a nice dinner together before Mom and Dakota left. I already got my good byes out of the way, now it was Melissa’s turn. Her daughter Dakota is 3 years old, this is the first time Melissa has ever left her. It was sad to watch, but sweet at the same time. So much love radiating between those two!

Got settled into our room and decided to watch a little T.V. to unwind before bed. T.V. remote didn’t work, batteries are dead. Ok it happens, so call down to the front desk and requested new batteries. Then we noticed no Ice bucket, so call for that. When the maintenance man came to change the batteries in the remote, Melissa asked him how to turn the closed caption on, on the T.V. He told us that it didn’t work, said the T.V. had to be programmed for it, that they un programmed it because too many people didn’t know how to turn them off when they see them on. He said he had to call the cable company tell them to program it. He called and the cable company said he had to look in the T.V. manual. He informed us he did not have a manual. He tried to do it himself and didn’t get it on and he left. We tried fidgeting with it and we couldn’t get it figured out. Usually I have no trouble figuring it out but was stumped this time. Melissa called down and she told them, “there is a Deaf person in this room, she needs closed caption” they kept transferring hr to one person after another. She got quite frustrated and finally said “look there is a ADD law that you have to have accessible Closed captions” as soon as she said that she got transferred to the manager. He came straight up to our room and tried to get them on. He was actually a very pleasant gentleman and really seemed to want to help. After about ten minutes he got them to work!! YAY!!  He then asked if we were hungry, well just having finished dinner a little while ago we were not very hungry. I said I was thirsty though, he asked what we wanted, I said to Melissa (actually I am signing to her the whole time, not talking) that I wanted some wine. She looked at me and said “you can’t have wine” and the manager looked at her and said “why is there some reason she can’t drink wine?” and she said, “no she can” and he told her “OK then we will bring you some wine and a cheese and fruit plate” Shortly later two glasses of white wine and a plate were delivered to our door!  Melissa and I giggled and squealed a little and then rehashed what happened and joked a little, while doing so she said as if she was talking to the front desk “ I know my friends rights I just finished a Deaf Studies class damn it!” ha ha It was funny…… yeah, I know,  probably something you had to be there in person to appreciate though right? I got a good giggle!

Not a bad start to our journey. Two glasses of wine before bed is not a bad ending to our day. On that note, midnight is approaching, time to hit the hay; we have to wake up at 4:30.

Next time I post I will be in D.C.!!!!! Until then……… peace.


Here is our complimentary wine and Cheese tray and a nice note from “Adam”



Welcome to my blog :)


I was looking for something, and I stumble upon a container that was once my kids, from when they were younger.  It was full of old clay and bits and pieces of treasure, both real and imagined.  The clay I found  is hard and un-pliable, totally useless.  I smiled as I saw bits and pieces that once resembled something akin to shape and form.  Although the clay was inflexible, at one time it was soft and supple.  I closed the container, and push it back against the wall.  I could not bring myself to throw it out.

I am that stubborn clay.  I am often hard and resistant to change.  I know what I was meant to be, and yet I am stubborn, clinging to that which I think is best.  I see myself in the face of a child, that lack of maturity is my partial reflection.  My resistance to be my best self.  My resistance to give up, so as to get more.

I see myself in light of the Word, and I am not living up to my full design potential.  There must be more than this.

I am on a mission to pursue joy.  In fact, I believe that joy is possible, and it is within grasp. Sadly, it may elude me often, but this does not have to be my harsh reality. Writing this blog will be a journey, as are all pursuits, and that journey begins today.  I invite you to come along for the ride.

I am inviting you to be part of my pursuit because by joining me, we can learn together.  I will do my best to be transparent, showing you what my flaws are, as well as allowing you to rejoice with me in triumphs.  Along the way, we can share together as we pursue joy.  May it be the pursuit of a lifetime for all of us.