Life is a Circus and You’re in Every Act




Do you ever feel like you are a clown juggling too many things at once, spinning too many plates? Maybe at times you feel like you are walking a tight rope without a safety net below? A lion tamer unable to tame the circumstances around you? Maybe you feel like you are a freak show to the world?

Beyond the wonder and magic of the circus, there is a lot we can learn from what happens under the big top. The circus, in many ways, is a metaphor for life — it’s crazy, unexpected, filled with a wild range of emotions. Under the big top, you can go from laughing your head off to holding your breath in fear in just a matter of moments. As in life, the circus is filled with some odd characters, many of which have a great deal of knowledge to share if only we look a little closer. Let’s pull back the curtain on the big top and see what life lessons we can find amid the sawdust and the sparkles…

Be the ringmaster. It’s your life. 

If life is a circus, then you should certainly be the star in your own ring. The ringmaster controls the show. The ringmaster is the most visible performer. The ringmaster is in charge. You can’t control everything in life, but there are many things you have the power to direct. Don’t let someone else be the ringmaster in your life. Take the reins (or the whip, in this case!) and remind yourself that you have the power to be in charge of this crazy circus we call life.


You’re on a tightrope. Keep your balance.

Just like the walk across the wire is for a tightrope walker, our lives will be most successful if we find balance. Lean too far in one direction and you’ll find yourself toppling over. Balance is not always easy to master when juggling relationships and jobs and passions, but it’s essential for living a positive and present life. Imagine yourself on a tightrope and ask yourself, “Am I leaning too far in one direction?” Don’t let one area of your life — no matter how important it might seem — distract you from achieving balance.


Toss your hat in the ring. Get involved. 

Like a circus coming to town, our lives are brief but wonderful. Don’t waste your life sitting on the sidelines. Get involved with activities, hobbies, friends, jobs. Say “yes” more than you say “no.” Do the things that scare you. Push your boundaries. Take the challenge of living life to the fullest. Life is a circus that’s magical to watch, but even more wonderful to participate in. Don’t waste your life being a spectator. Throw down your inhibitions and throw your hat into the ring.


Set up a sturdy net. You will need back-up.

No matter how balanced you try to be, you’ll make mistakes. You’ll slip and fall. Nothing could be worse than a fall without a net so make sure you have a strong network of people to help you get back up on your feet. You don’t need a lot of people — a few will do the trick — but you do need people who will catch you when you fall, who will dust you off, and who will help you get back up on your feet. You won’t often need your safety net, but you’ll be thankful you have it when you start to lose your balance.


Clown around. Life’s too short to be serious.

Even if you’re a bit wary of clowns (there’s just something not right about a painted-on smile…), it’s hard not to appreciate their ability to make life a comedy. Life is much too short to spend your time being serious. Take a lesson from the circus clowns and make a joke, share a laugh, do something so silly and outrageous that you make yourself crack up. Seriousness has it’s time and place, but it’s the silliness you’ll remember most. So clown around. Laugh.

Life is very much like the world under the big top — filled with the unexpected, the exciting, and the terrifying. It’s a lot to take in, but if you look closely, beyond the curtain, beneath the glitter, you’ll see the wisdom that lies behind the wonder and the whimsy…



Written in response to The Daily Post Daily Prompt: Circus


Blank, Broken, Empty, Numb……Healing


Daily Challenge Word of the Day: “Blank”


My initial gut reaction was to just leave this space, well …. “Blank”!

Then I started thinking about how blank I have been feeling inside. I recently been going through a break up with my long term boyfriend, who is also my best friend. There no words for how I feel inside, except “blank”. I am on auto pilot right now, going through the motions, hoping the empty spaces slowly fill back up. They will! I am sure of it! I think they already are. The pain is less every day. I have had some new people come into my life who are slowly helping me forget. Not to mention all the wonderful people already are in it. Forget the pain, never him or the memories. They are amazing and even IF it is over for good I will always be happy they happened. We had some of the best adventures together! I will hold onto those forever as I continue on my new journey and fill the blank space in my heart once again.  By the way……This is the first time I have talked or posted publicly about it. So I must be healing……..


Just a poem I wrote. Not a total reflection of how I feel now, but yes how I felt…….


To Live Again


Once we were lovers

Lost in our dreams

Not even using our names

Just dreaming about each other

Tears in my eyes

From the tears that I’ve cried

A never ending cycle

from the loneliness of mine

I hurt you badly,

cut you deep

I hurt me too,

our tears both seep

Why do I only see what I want

when it’s gone?

My dear,

this mess has all gone terribly wrong!

It’s wounded too much,

to go on living

Now you’re not here

my head is spinning

I cannot love

My heart is tainted

By the picture of love

You have painted

Can’t you see

you’re needed by my side

Without you

I’m tossed into the ocean

with my hands tightly tied

Now nothing pumps

but the empty blood in my veins

And nothing, no drug,

can cover these awful pains

I hate the fact, That I cry,

I hate the fact,

That inside I slowly die,

I want to feel my blood pumping again

I want us to be where we were back then.





Weekly Photo Challenge: “Spare”


Well this seems appropriate for my first time participating in The Daily Post‘s Weekly photo challenge, the word is “Spare“.  Why is it appropriate? Because I enjoy taking photographs in my spare time! So that is what my first photo entries will be some I have enjoyed taking in my spare time. 🙂

I have so many, but will add a few of my favorites 🙂


This was taken on a day of sailing in Southern California. What a great day! I squealed in delight as a school of dolphins surrounded our sailboat! One of my best days ever!!


We call this one “Lady Bug Porn” :::: chuckles ::: It was a beautiful February morning! We went hiking at Mt. Baldy. To our surprise it was lady bug mating season and millions, literally millions of lady bugs everywhere!! Another wonderful moment in my life!!


This was taken on one of our many day trips, frolicking, walking, sunbathing and  hiking at Laguna Beach, California. One of my favorite places to go locally!


A trip to Los Angeles Flower District, while in search of the perfect mother day gift, resulted in this shot.


On our drive to Reno every Thanksgiving we pass this beautiful Topaz Lake. This particular trip, we arrived at dawn and pulled over to watch the sun rise. It was a breathtaking moment and nice peaceful break from the long drive and hectic life.


I like to make friends wherever I go! Here is one I made while taking a stroll on  Huntington Beach Pier.


I can’t take credit for this, Mark took it. I just cleaned it up some. But one of my favorites! Driving home from a 5 day trip to Auburn, California, for a dear friends wedding,  we passed by Mt. Whitney and he got this shot. A great end to a wonderful long weekend.




This seems to be everyone’s favorite “selfie” shot! So I thought I would add it. While in Virginia City, I was taking a selfie and Mark decided to throw a snowball at me!!  Resulting in this great shot and laughter!


That’s all folk!! Thank you for sharing in some of my favorite “spare” moment memories!!

Epitome of Pain



WordPress has a “Prompt of the Day” word. Today’s word is “Epitome” .  You take the word and write something it prompts you to write. I have not participated in this as of yet. I actually just learned of it today. I thought it sounded fun so here goes.

What came to mind for me first was a poem I wrote long ago. When I was in what I thought was the epitome of pain…….


I don’t know who I am anymore,

I am not the girl i was before.

Smiles still on the outside,

but deep within I cry.

Broken by heartache,

Overcome by fear. 

Putting on a strong face.

Hiding the tears.

Demons within me. 

Hellions to fight. 

Scratching and clawing

alone in the night.

Is it Karma,

sins or things done bad, 

To bring on this mania 

that drives me mad?

Did I really live life so wrong? 

Was I that bad a person I am paying now? 

Always hard on my luck, 

Always falling down.

Parasites that feed upon my soul. 

The stifling world around me. 

Dark, suffocating darkness,

no light. 

My life spinning out of control.

Drowning in my mistakes. 

A crack in my shell. 

I am shrouded in the tenebrosity of despair.

wondering in my private hell…….

Nothing can explain it. 

Only time alone can heal the pain. 

Must forgive myself. 

Then the suffering will no longer reign.




FB Break Misc. Stuff


So I am taking a Facebook break…… (Though, I know these will automatically post on there ::::waves:::: Hi everyone!)  To keep my mind off stuff, working on my blog. Here are a few misc things.

“Open your heart to happiness
Let every pore absorb light
Swim in the joy of the here and now
And cast off the darkness of night
Walk in the summer of sunshine
Fly in the blueness of sky
Know possibilities are boundless
Understand that nothing can die
Step from the shadows of torment
Sing ’til your throat gets too sore
Smile for as long as the day is
And laugh just a little bit more
Breathe slowly and deeply and listen
Give all your ideas a chance
Let the sun beat down on your goodness
And kick off your shoes and dance


The notes of your
heart ring through
my head – beating
thoughts like the drums
of sadness you play

“Boom Boom Boom”
– they pound –
leaving me tossing
through another
sleepless night

Oh how I await the
day for your melodious
sounds to cease
so that I may finally
close my eyes
and be left
in silence



Pain swallows her slowly
Driven backwards
As her world slips away
Regressing, not progressing
She tries
She cries
She yearns, aches, prays
For help
Again and again
God doesn’t answer
She can’t hear Him
She cries
He has heard
Reality fades away
More pills
Make more pain
Everything wasted
For her moment
Failed misery
Beaten by love

Why We Don’t Care (But Should)




ClimateIf you were born after 1990, chances are you have been listening to debates on climate change since before you can remember. It seems like, for as long as I can remember, politicians have been arguing over the validity of climate change, but by-and-large the everyday person doesn’t really seem to care.

And it can be hard to really care at times. Aside from the insane polar vortex snowstorms and occasional massive hurricane or draught-induced forest fire, it’s pretty easy to ignore the everyday signs that the planet we live on today in 2016 is vastly different than the one you may remember from your childhood.

Bill McKibben pretty much gets to the head of our seeming collective-incomprehension of what is happening to the planet, stating “after a certain point, an ongoing crisis becomes life.” In many ways, our environmental crisis has worked its way so inextricably into our lifestyles that we don’t even notice it’s there anymore. On a very practical level, we make decisions that impact the environment everyday: Should I drive to work or risk being late taking the bus that might be delayed?; Should I just throw out this water bottle because I don’t feel like holding it until I see a recycling bin?

Plain and simple, our immediate needs ALWAYS trump the potential long-term outcome. While these are situations you probably have encountered fairly recently, let’s take a look at some of the BIG reasons why people just don’t seem to care about climate change, or at least why they don’t care enough to make any real change in their lives.

  1. Economy

We all know that fossil fuels are bad for the planet. Beyond a doubt, environmental scientists point to our global fossil fuel use as the driving cause of human-induced climate change. So, why then are we not only continuing to burn fossil fuels, but expanding efforts to unearth more and more of this Earth damaging sludge?

Well, somewhere down the line we decided to build our economy on the stuff. It’s not about practical energy needs anymore with the advancement of alternative energy, it’s about money.

  1. Politics

According to the Sierra Club, the fossil fuel industry contributed over $500 million into anti-climate change and pro-oil candidates in the 2010 mid-term elections. This money helped to influence U.S. climate policy, drive down gas prices, and initiated the collection of $4 billion of taxpayer subsidies that went directly into the pockets of Big Oil companies.

Providing funding to pro-oil politicians unfairly stacks the House, Senate, and Congress with politicians who are motivated to vote in favor of pro-oil legislation. Just look at how quickly natural gas has expanded across the country.

  1. They Don’t “Have To”

Luckily, for the majority of Americans, the environmental costs of our lifestyles have been artfully hidden from view. When you buy cheap food in a grocery store, you don’t see the tons of carbon and chemicals that were emitted into the atmosphere and water supply to get that box of cookies to your cabinet. When we flip on the lights, we only see clean easy electricity, not the smog producing, greenhouse gas emitting smoke stack from the coal plant that created that energy.

Not to mention the fact that unless you’re actively looking for information on climate change, information is not readily publicized. In recent years, only a little over 200 articles on global warming or climate change were published in North American newspapers. The Kardashians, however, were featured in over 1,050 newspapers in 2011 alone…

So, it’s really not your fault if you assumed climate change wasn’t all that pressing of an issue based on news coverage.

Reasons You Should Care

Above all the reasons you should care about climate change is because WE’RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER! Channel your inner flower-child and think about how you would like others to treat the planet and how you would like it to be treated. But if that’s a little too hippy for you, here are some reasons we can all get on board with.

  1. There Are Solutions!


  1. We CAN Change

Climate change is not the first challenge humans have had to face and it won’t be the last. There are so many simple ways you can change your lifestyle that create a positive ripple effect. Get the word out and you will be astounded by the number of people you can reach with a simple, informative message.

More than ever, younger generations are taking up the fight against climate change. By informing children from a young age about the benefits of living an environmentally friendly lifestyle, we can transform the future social and cultural landscape.

  1. Everyone Wins

Climate change poses a serious threat to the future stability of the world’s economies, the ability for countries to produce enough food to feed their people, and can greatly impact public health.

Working to limit and even prevent these potential negative outcomes only have positive outcomes.

Clean air, safe drinking water, and a stable climate. What more could you really want out of life?