Daily Challenge Word of the Day: “Blank”
My initial gut reaction was to just leave this space, well …. “Blank”!
Then I started thinking about how blank I have been feeling inside. I recently been going through a break up with my long term boyfriend, who is also my best friend. There no words for how I feel inside, except “blank”. I am on auto pilot right now, going through the motions, hoping the empty spaces slowly fill back up. They will! I am sure of it! I think they already are. The pain is less every day. I have had some new people come into my life who are slowly helping me forget. Not to mention all the wonderful people already are in it. Forget the pain, never him or the memories. They are amazing and even IF it is over for good I will always be happy they happened. We had some of the best adventures together! I will hold onto those forever as I continue on my new journey and fill the blank space in my heart once again. By the way……This is the first time I have talked or posted publicly about it. So I must be healing……..
Just a poem I wrote. Not a total reflection of how I feel now, but yes how I felt…….
To Live Again
Once we were lovers
Lost in our dreams
Not even using our names
Just dreaming about each other
Tears in my eyes
From the tears that I’ve cried
A never ending cycle
from the loneliness of mine
I hurt you badly,
cut you deep
I hurt me too,
our tears both seep
Why do I only see what I want
when it’s gone?
My dear,
this mess has all gone terribly wrong!
It’s wounded too much,
to go on living
Now you’re not here
my head is spinning
I cannot love
My heart is tainted
By the picture of love
You have painted
Can’t you see
you’re needed by my side
Without you
I’m tossed into the ocean
with my hands tightly tied
Now nothing pumps
but the empty blood in my veins
And nothing, no drug,
can cover these awful pains
I hate the fact, That I cry,
I hate the fact,
That inside I slowly die,
I want to feel my blood pumping again
I want us to be where we were back then.
R.I.P.
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